It shouldn't be a surprise that I'm not blogging every day. It's not happening and that's ok.
I've been thinking about that "greatness" thing again. I don't even think it's greatness, I think it's passion. I feel like I'm not necessarily passionate about anything any more, and it's making me sad.
One of my friends records about 3 different podcasts monthly. Two of my friends are teaming up to start a small publishing venture on the side. Another friend is blogging about traveling. They're all passionate about something, and I feel like my passion has left me.
I've been enthusiastic about a number of things over the years, most notably television. But now? I find myself constantly behind on every show. I'm probably watching too much, but then we're allegedly in a "Golden Age of Television" Even so, I find it becoming a chore. I could delete my whole DVR and I wonder if I would actually mind?
This is not to say that I'm depressed. If i were, I think I'd be watching more tv, not less. But I still can't help that feel that something is off. Something is missing.
How does one go about recapturing a passion?
I keep trying to come up with ideas. Something to do. Something interesting and sustainable.
Maybe I watch a show I've never seen before and podcast about it from the beginning. Or a show I love, and point out the things I love...
Maybe I try writing again. I've always loved screenplays and mysteries.
Maybe I think of a third thing, because of the rule of three!
I don't think anyone reads this. Mostly because I haven't told anyone I'm writing this. But if you're reading and you have any thoughts, let me know.